Whatever makes them Purrrrr

Cats can sense Death.


http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2007/7/26/worldupdates/2007-07-26t034213z_01_nootr_rtrmdnc_0_india-286574-1&sec=worldupdates

Cute furry animal they are. And owh, I can spend the whole day watching and playing with them. (and ohhh - dogs too!)

The Muka Karipap Menyampah

I've never felt so angry before.
Nevermind why. It's ...

I'm typing on my new Compaq Presario V3521TU Lappie. Eye candie.
Works like crap. I can't get the scroller on the touchpad to work, and the budak at the store tried to do things I already tried at home. So Dong.
Oh. Correction, its not mine. My sister's~
I still like my Dell though its ugly. More user friendly, and even the keys on the keypad is strategically placed.

I had a day of looooonnnngg meeting today. Two sessions. -.-"
And for the first time, I get so pissed with this so-called BA cos he doesn't know how to shut up.
People who attend the meeting are experts at their own field, and he acts like he knows all.
Dah lah tak fasih, wanna talk fast and he sounds worse than DonaldDuck. Crack voiced.
Menyampah kao kao.

"One curious question"
"One more question" (before people can answer his previous question)
"I don't see why you need to do that" (when people had been using it for years)

He don't understand the constraints of time zones.
Because he kept questioning why can't we do trading 24/7 since we are already in the internet age" (Hello~ dealers work 24/7 ka? You replace everyone larrrr! Doink~)

"NONONO. I'm saying when its all good. Not during system downtime. Why do we need manual intervention???"
Nor can he understand the possibility of hardware failures. And also the fact that there are inter-system communication and channels have DOWNtime tooo~ (which is frequent~)

And the bomb was, I'm sitting right opposite him.

Everyone was raising their voice and trying to explain. He will then raise his voice even though he was only talking to the person next to him. What's his problem?? Acting all big shot.

Kedongdong.

So much Love

We see the best of someone when they are put under a very difficult situation.

When it comes to things that are close to home, I break far more easily than I thought I would.
I've shed more tears in days than I ever had in years.

I pray for you to be well and I'll be there.
May you have the strength to fight it.

Babbbb

Nyarrh.
What's next?

Life is so monotonous right now.
I should just quite my job and take a year off and go travel.
Haha.

Harry Potter craze is immense. Insane, really. They should set up a counter or two or half a counter for those who didn't wish to be part of the Potter craze yet. Let us watch the lao ya movies, please.
So heartless.

I'm a big fan of Starbucks. (Not that you don't know of, I just wanna say it again). I vowed to quit coffee. I had a tall BananaJavaChip just this afternoon. One time only-larh. They serve tea too. So chill~

I'm forever hungry these days. Food is a blessing.

Seen some new places this weekend. I'm so full of it right now. Lots to think about and consider.

Cure my sweet-tooth urges please.

I should take a flight off to Penang this Friday and meet my parents, and grandma.


So much babbling.

Mo Ngan Tai

"Mo ngan tai."
See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil.

p/s: By the way, Justine lost. Short of a Wimbledon to complete a career Grand Slam.
I'm mourning.

Concede

The game is not healthy anymore.
When playfulness becomes competitive, its ruined.
It's a challenge to remain nonchalant when you are subjected to those elements, but its not impossible.
You know its only a game, and it should stay that way.
They constantly push you to the edge, apart of me threatens to leap off the cliff.

In this case, Ignorance is Bliss.

Low

One after another.
I couldn't take it. It's not too late for me to care now, and I'm trying.
People I care about are too far from where I am.
It's all uncertain. The anticipation is a pain.
The fact that I don't know how bad things are isn't helping me much.

I can cope.
Just that I'm sometimes lost. Lost in my own labyrinth of thoughts.
Nothing silly, no worries.
It's OK to question your own questions. Keeps me sane.
Though often I find no answers, nor can I provide.
I wish I could do more with friends around me, but no.
Was it me, or was it them?
My thoughts told me that it doesn't have to be that way. I can do better.
I tried too hard, perhaps?
I'm a no nonsense person when it comes to certain things. It's hard to fake it.
I end up hurting people, cos the truth hurts more than any lies.

I just want to wish my friends well. Thanks to Sumatra, we might need those surgical masks pretty soon.

Sorry, try again.

My patience expired 2 seconds ago. Dead and buried.
Or so I thought.
I got a name.
An anonymous virtual connection.
A lot of visuals.

In many ways, the guessing game is on.

Walking Away from a Possibility

I wasn't given a chance to make it happen.
I tried to but it just didn't.
What makes it so hard to catch your line of vision?
Across the room, across that space.
I was there all along, so were you.

I've never felt this for a long long time.
It's all about to become a distant memory.
I was forced to walk away and wasn't left with any options.

Walking out. Waiting for a miracle.

We Learn

Sometimes it just makes me wonder if we ever learn from past mistakes. Sometimes the situation makes it so tempting to make you give in for the second time. And the second time around, with you being aware of the consequences and possibilities of history repeating itself, you are at the verge of allowing possibilites to become reality.

But its not all bad, not all the time.

Discovering for yourself what really makes you tick is somewhat a huge finding.
I'd say that its a gray area that I am ready to explore at the moment.
You'll never know whats around that corner until you go around it. Risky as it is, I guess I'm prepared.

Without risks there can be no returns; I lived by.

A Spike in my Wallet

Comfort shopping is my weakness.

Oh let me correct this, its not comfort shopping, I wasnt comforting myself through hurting my wallet. Hehe.

It was something you lay your eyes on. But did nothing when you first saw it.

...

Then it just keeps playing in your mind, kept playing and kept playing.
In-born talent to remember things to the details. Certain things.
Until one day I just couldnt take it anymore and the result was :

A spike in my wallet.

Many of us are aware of the harm that UV rays can do to us, although most of us took care of the skin, and more often than not, forgot about the eyes. I'd rather get sun burnt that be blind.

Hence the need for protection.

*sounds so damn self-comforting

Mindful Babble

Bummer. I was trying to complete and post a bulletin on friendster when the connection just went poof. Only on Friendster. Bulletin are quite fun things to do ya know (kudos to those who came up with lists of questions that seemed to tackle a person's emotion all round).

So lets put that Friendster thingy behind. I've been trying to refresh the page and all that, without copying my post in the first place, so its all lost now. That was a darn Long posting Okay... and its now lost. Bah.

Freak weather we get these days. Its chilling at night when I sleep. But the feeling was just nice, I dread to get out of bed in these perfect sleeping conditions.

Its funny how you get yourself used to the people at work each and every day. One scan at the work area and you know who's in and who's not. It's also amazing how a simple smile can make people's day. You don't have to know them to acknowledge them. It's a kind of respect you show for people. Smiles and nods are polite, but staring is rude.

I guess I'm just pleased with how things are right now.

"Do you know what a compromise is?
Its not bending the law, its an agreement reached by mutual concessions."

A compromise wont hurt you in the long run.

Apocalypse with a capital "a" means Revelation

Little things that makes you laugh.

What if we were told that the world is going to end tomorrow? What would you do?
Will you still care about your status in the society, the amount of money you make, the car you drive, the place you live in? Will the chase for material greed still go on?

If humans unite at world's end, I'd rather it be doomsday.
If status, gender, race and religion don't matter anymore, I'll welcome doomsday.

"The end of the world is a great equaliser - who gives a rat's behind about race, religion and social status when your brain is about to be eaten?"

Raindrops

*thinks hard*

What the heck. Why is it that each time when I'm driving my car, I have all those thoughts running through my head (those things that I wanna blog about!!); but when I am sitting here trying to type it out by recalling those thoughts, I get nothing!

This is frustrating...

Ever divide rationality into categories?
*wth*

Let's say you were eyeing something expensive at the mall. You heart says go for it. But your mind tells you that you should get the hell out right now. Then comes the rational-thinking-process. You've decided against the urge. You tell yourself that you will not buy it this time, because its an unnecessary waste of money. So you do whatever necessary to get yourself out of the stressful situation you put yourself under; by removing the stress factor.

A different look at this matter. Let's say Money is not an issue, at all. Rational thinking might not be needed after all. You get what you want and when you want it, with your monetary power. *removes alot of stress factor, doesn't it?

Whenever there is a stress factor, there is the need for the ability to reason. But how some people just couldn't see how things are simple and straight forward is still beyond my comprehension. They complicate things that are far from complicated. Add more stress factors to an already stressed out mind. Rational, they claim they are.

You need logic and sense to be rational. Not the ability to twist facts just so it's easier for you to take in.

Learn how to appreciate things that you have. Be grateful and thankful that you have what you have today; achieved what you had achieved today. Greed only takes you as deep as your pocket, moderation takes you beyond.

Argh

Screw that last post.

What goes around comes around. *Repeat 100x*

Meeeoooooowwwhh!

Untitled

I never felt so defeated all my life.
Makes me want to just stab and club you with each and every single tool I can find here.
....

So pissed, I am.

Get Lost in Music

I want to do nothing except to get lost in music with my trusty sidekick.

What's on my playlist is *secret*.

Do we look Weak?

Do we look weak when we let ourselves succumb to emotional letdowns?

Or do we pride in being able to pick ourselves up from the shittiest moments?

If ever we could avoid anything like this, there won't be any chances to better ourselves and also be a stronger person emotionally and mentally.

When people talk to you about their emotional sufferings, listen instead of offering your-point-of-views. Most of the time people who are in deep shit usually have part of their brains shut; simply means that they just cannot absorb things regarding issues close to them at that point of time.

I am starting to think that I'm a little bonkers. Heartache is a pleasure. It triggers my mind. It makes me think. I enjoyed putting the pieces of puzzles together. The prize for putting it together; priceless. It just thrills me.

Mugged

I was on my way to meet up my friends at one of my friend's place, a two storey shop lot. The commercial centre was a quite remote, away from the bustling city, amongst a rapidly developing housing estate but scarcely populated.

A total of 10 lots per block. A 2 metre wide pavement lined the shop front. White flourescent lights illuminate the otherwise dark area. The entire stretch of shops are lighted up.

I walked down the walkway towards my friend's place. Weirdly enough, its totally dark from where I stand. I was at the car park next to the stretch of shoplots. My friend's place would be the second last unit from where I stand.
I was never afraid of the dark, so I walked on. Being mugged was the last thing on my mind. Never crossed my mind either. Almost 10 metres to the entrance, I see shadows of people moving in right in front of me. One, two, three, four, five, six. From their silhouettes, they are obviously men. Besides that my earlobes picks up sounds of grunts and alot of spitting. Argh..bloody disgusting.

I filled my thoughts with the possibility of being mugged for real; it just comes spinning into my conscious mind. As if on cue, I found myself speeding up the stairs, while trailing me were heavy stompings. I knew I was in trouble. I don't have time to figure out what was actually happening. I screamed for my friends to let me in, as the stompings get louder, they are getting nearer. Faster, damn it! Friends saw my terrified face and the moment I got in, I hit it shut, and locked it immediately.

Beast of men they were, they try to break their way in. Beasts they were, it gets harder with each blow towards the door. There is no such thing as steel grill or any form of reinforcement governing the door. The knob is the only silver shiny thing you can find on the door. Damn it.

While the door could still take in a couple more hard blows, I am worried about one thing: the knob. It seemed to loosen with each blow. Bang bang bang, and more bangs. The knob holding back the threat is now vulnerable, it was about to get ripped off.

*---*"

Fantastic dream.
I don't remember what happened after the guys got in. I remembered being assulted, and was asked to hand over things I can't recall. It's about me and door knobs. Door knobs.

Hey, give me a number for door knobs, I think I should get a bit of windfall through all the knobs I dreamnt of. haha.
Don't play play, if ever you dream about Andy Lau, there's a number for it too. So what not for a knob, huh?! =P

4 In the Morning

Effortless.
I don't even know if I meant what I said.
Emotions were strong, the feeling was intense.

But what does it all mean? To me? Was I in for another round of getting things messed up?

I could not give you the kind of acceptance you get from other people.
I am well aware of that, and nor was I hoping for things to change.
Things happen for a reason, and I have every piece of evidence to back that statement.

I am not who I used to be.
Complicated things are not complicated anymore.
Difficult issues are a breeze to me now.
I saw through it.

Been there, done that. Nothing else too difficult.