Walk On

Tranquility

There were moments of indecision.
To do or not to do.
Again, I was doing things based on feelings alone.

There were tough moments.
There were moments I broke down.
But this time around, it was easy to see where the thorn was.

I'm walking on thin ice and feeling oddly good about it.

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year.
It has always been the time of the year where I look forward for family dinner, gatherings, social gambling and social boozing.
(wth.. hate it or not, little bit of alcohol creates the warm atmosphere and it gets people talking!)

This time around, it'll be a very memorable one.
There were moments.
But I'll be smiling.

=)

Have a good one, people.

Looking Back

This is the year that was, 2008.

It had been a rollercoaster year.
There are things that I've done wrong, I could have done it differently.
There were no regrets in any of the events that took place in the course of 2008.
I've learnt to trust my gut feelings, instead of obeying the logical mind behind this face.
I've also accepted that there are things that you can't explain by words alone.
There is more to it than words can describe.
I learnt to trust my feelings.
Like I never did before.

I used to be a logical thinker.
Things must be practical, backed by facts and visuals.
It had always been that way.
It had been like that because of my upbringing.
I was taught that feelings alone will not get you what you want.
There are still room for occasional bursts of impulsive acts.
Spontaneity is still very much part of me.






For a better 2009. Cheers. Happy New Year everyone.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year everyone.
how's the celebrations?

Mine was superb. I Overslept and missed the fireworks. In a haste I grabbed my camera and went out only to realised I left out my memory card.

Gah...

Would you believe that? Anyway I can get a good view from my place, can see the one at Genting and various parts of KL. Just missed the perfect photo opportunity, cos I did not do my homework and slept instead.

Anyway, here I am sitting at the airport waiting for the next flight out cos I Overslept. Read again: Overslept. Gah. Signs showing, I'm getting old. I blame the good weather and too much sleep the evening before. Sigh.

Happy New Year, folks.

(licking my own bitter wounds for not being punctual. And definitely paying a hefty price)

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There are things money can't buy.

Civilised, at last

It's been a long time since I last took a ride on the Putra LRT. A year or two perhaps? I'd rather get stuck in a jam within the comforts of my car rather than swimming in a sea of pits and foul smelling coaches. Gah.

Call me spoilt.

I was at Masjid Jamek station just two days ago. The newly renovated station makes a clean appearance. Except that its abit deserted, and no one knows what to do with the extra spaces; other than the illegal street hawkers. Same old escalators, same ticketing counters, just as many people as before. Nothing has changed, aye?

As I waited for the escalator to reach the platform area below, I was speechless. Did I see lines? As in people waiting in lines to get on the train. Hey, this is by far the most civilised of Malaysians I've ever seen! Everybody was waiting patiently in line, no one was getting edgy, frustated and making a scene out of the long wait. No grunts, no sighs.

All they need is a Rapid employee shouting orders at people; assessing the situation and directing them to shorter lines. All they need was one man with a Loud voice.


Switching to trains anytime soon?

Blue Skies

You say you don't discriminate, but you do mind if one of your friends get involved in one. Isn't that indirect discrimination? You can't bring yourself to accept your friend's decision to get involved; cannot bring yourself to accept their choice. Then you decide to play God, and decide what is right and what is wrong, what should be done, and what shouldn't be done.

Before anyone can ask for acceptance, they should be able to justify their decisions. It doesn't mean that you are obliged to hold yourself answerable to everyone, the public, the society on all questions regarding this particularly sensitive issue. Even though you owe no one any explanation, you still need to be able to explain to yourself.

It's about being able to explain yourself; why you chose to be; and why you want to be; and not expecting everyone to be seeing things on the same plane immediately.

What do you know about acceptance?

Distinctively Yours

There are things that must  be clear cut. No in between. No compromise.

A Cambodian couple decided to saw off their house into half after a divorce. -.-"

Now, tell me about clear cut. That's a whole new level of divorcing.

Source:

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20081010/ap_on_fe_st/as_odd_cambodia_unique_divorce

Take My Hand

Life is a rigid, sequentially executed list of programs.

Fresh out of your mother's womb, learn to crawl, learn to walk, learn to talk, learn to talk back, go to school, secondary school, college, university, get a boyfriend, get married, have kids, educate them. etc etc etc. Lastly wait for the Grim Reaper to come for you.

This cycle has been passed down for countless of generations.

Breaking the preprogrammed guide on how one should live their lives seemed out of norm. People don't usually do that; often brushed it off saying why should anyone challenge something that were proven to work after so many generations? 

Lack of faith in Novelty? Or were they simply afraid to thread off the beaten path?

Do we require formality in ALL things? These are not business deals. Not something you give, take and sign papers. With money back guarantee? God.. These are real feelings we're talking about.

They are just going through the motions, perhaps?

Selamat Hari Raya, Malaysia

The thing about us Malaysians is that, we really do forgive and forget. 

Wait a minute, I don't think it happen very often, but at least we will do that in the spirit of any festive celebration in the country, provided there are 'rumah terbuka' - whereby endless sumptuous spread of festive food is served - FREE OF CHARGE. 

No one felt uneasy about race relations; damn right we aren't, we've been living together for the past how many years? 51. We still don't know how to disagree rationally. It was because some idiots decide to question differences and make it their agenda to save their own sorry ass, we have to live through hell created by them.

Free food = Good crowd

So, did anyone get me any ketupats from Pak Lah's open house feast?

Selamat Hari Raya, maaf zahir dan batin.

Accuracy of Death

How would you feel if you were to find out that life and death is decided upon by one of the many Grim Reapers?

Who are they to decide who lives and who dies, based on their outlooks on your life which they don't have the slightest idea about, besides coming to claim your life when the time comes.

Seemingly plain and simple things can be important; it brings meaning and purpose to life.

Freedom Writers

Haven't seen anything great lately on HBO, until this. A must watch.
To pen down the deepest of thoughts, feelings, suffering and pain in the raw is most honest.

"Justice doesn't mean the bad guy goes to jail, it just means that someone pays for the crime."

""I don't even know how this war started. It's just two sides that tripped each other way back. Who cares about the history behind it. I am my father's daughter and when they call me to testify, I will protect my own no matter what."

What Was

A stretch of space separates us.

There were responsibilities,
choices and decisions.
There were moments of doubts,
empty spaces to fill.

I don't remember dreaming, for a while now
Was I contented with life that I need no help from within?

p/s: Happy Birthday! =)

Through My Eyes

Most would agree that people see things differently, despite the fact that we see through the same organ of vision as everybody else: the eyes.

The difference relies on the depth of understanding, regardless of subject; abstract matter, object or simply, a person. The interpretation lies far beneath the eyes, the complexities that makes up the inner workings of the delicate gray matter. Part of it lies in the willingness of the individual to accept new ideas, to be indifferent to differences. It makes up the perception. Things that a person do and how it's done gives an insight of that person.

Can't expect the rest of the world to see things the way we see it.


We are here to complement each other.

Random

Why does it gets worse when you get analytical?

What's with the formalized quest to be complete?

Or at least feel complete?

Was your own interests all that matters?

Do you feel responsible to change someone
to complete your puzzle?



Something is wrong with you when everything had to be done your way.

Lameness

I never understand why the Government needed so long to finally realize that touts have been co-existing with legitimate counters for the LONGEST OF TIME.

I don't exactly know when touts started operating out in the open, but it was already there when I was still a student. That was 6-7 years back!

As usual, the Government will somehow manage to come up with a solutions whenever they need to impress.

Something like this.


Men in Black. So, does that make us aliens?

They look like touts themselves. Behhh tonnngggg!

Source:
http://thestar.com.my/metro/story.asp?file=/2008/9/22/central/2084146&sec=central

Over and Off

I am embarassed by the things I blurted out of the mess in my head.
My head was spinning endlessly; I was lost in a myriad of my own thoughts as a result of all that spin.
It was spinning out of control before I managed to come back to my senses, and think with a clear conscience.

All I did was to question myself.
It wasn't hard to conclude; I certainly didn't like to be a part of a x = y equation either.
In an instance, the scattered pieces fell into place, I got overboard with my words.
I need to dump my head into the sand and remain there for a while.

When someone stops believing in themselves, it affects people who believed in them.

*paws...*

Sometimes all it takes is to put yourself in someone else's shoes.

May the Blind not lead the Blind

I can tell you how some people can be so impatient/vicious.
They curse at phones, for ringing constantly.
They curse when people don't answer the phone.

Jalan jam, curse.
Traffic jam, curse.
Queue panjang, curse.
Potong queue, curse.

Double park, nevermind.
(as long as you don't block mine)

They get animated over inanimate objects.

It's no surprise Malaysians are an animated bunch of people, because our leaders are themselves birds of the same kind. The blind lead the blind.

Animated and twisted sarcasm.

Kiddy politics.

Don't test me, I shall place you under ISA arrest.

We shall cut ties with the blind leader and be a different kind of blind.

Drying Factor

I sometimes have rather harmful thoughts.

While drying my hands with the infra red activated no-touch hand dryer, I had thoughts of the dryer blowing up in my face. The sound of the hot air blowing out of the little machinery was rather disturbing. My immediate reaction was to lean back a bit, bring my face farthest from the dryer, acting defensively. Such was my reaction to it.

I shall dig deep into my sanity to see what the above mannerism is trying to imply.

Look Away

"Perhaps the person is simply looking for a piece of herself in someone else, and that person is not you. It doesn't mean that you aren't valuable, just that friends are made for many reasons, change over time and can come back together again when emotional and psychological transitions have been worked through." - July 31, 2008, CNN/Living

This particular phrase rang a bell.

Cheerios.