Thoughts For Jamie

It's been quite some time since I last posted my thoughts here.

Should start something here again. Since 2011 (the year I last posted something) up till this day, a lot of things has changed.

2012 was nothing ordinary.
The decision the push forward with my life living it this way, is a significant choice. Self acceptance has become so easy, especially when so many challenges were thrown at you. Well, the only saving grace is that we know planes take off against the wind, not with it. I decided to leave people that does not help me grow, out of my life.
July 2012 was a something that I will remember for the rest of my life. My mum was diagnosed with terminal cancer of the uterine, scientifically known as LMS. It was a major blow to the family given that we had only lost our beloved grandmother in 2011. I slipped into a state where I was questioning my goals in life. Despite having understanding people around me, but work responsibilities has become a burden to me. It's a tussle between being employed and fulfilling daughter duties. It was no question where my priorities are, it was to be with Her; at the same time I felt the pressure of delivering work for projects I work on, and especially when I have to be posted to Singapore to complete them. I started questioning myself on why I get caught in such situation where I did not have the freedom to choose what I want to do for the people that are important in my life.
I am grateful that my sisters both took time and alternately spend time with mum throughout her battle with the terminal cancer. It was almost like a death sentence when I read about the current statistics of LMS survivors. 5% and if they do, they don't live past 2 years.

2013 was a life turning point for me. I was venturing out of my comfort zone. Sales is something I never never never imagined that I would do. Not even selling anything. When I was younger, probably because of my short temper, Mum have always told me I could never sell anything. Even if the person did or did not buy, I would have probably bit off their heads before they leave. I could never do sales. That thought was kind of imprinted in my head and I grow up knowing that I can never do sales. True enough, all the jobs that I took on were more along the lines of IT, dealing with computers and more interpersonal skills and through lots of teleconferences, I learnt to be articulate and precise.

We really don't know what we are made of until you really discover it.
It was not about selling, it was more on working on the level of influence, driven by belief. How the strong belief is ingrained so soon, I am impressed with the program and what it did to my cholesterol and of course my body. The bigger discovery is using all that you are, all the experiences that I accumulate, put it in a different platform, and poof, I took off.

2014, a new beginning to a new year coming into my second year in this business. The Turkey Incentive Trip was a fun trip especially I brought along my proud Daddy with me :)

Never never never never give up on your dreams :)