Death, close to home

Its such coincidence that I was just blogging about dealing with death in the last post.

My grandma lost her battle to cancer, and passed away peacefully in March.

There were too much memories and time that we shared together, growing up in the same home under one roof.
Those evenings we spent playing with my cats and kittens and dogs. A kind soul like her, she cared for every single stray cat or dogs that came by our house.

The brilliant mind at home, she can fix anything despite not having proper education. I do miss her.

I can stil find myself welled up whenever I speak of her.

May you rest in peace.

I'm back

Back to blogging once more. On mobile this time !

Nasi Lemak x 2

Oh why oh why.

I can feel the warmth ozzing out of the banana leaf and the smell of newspaper kept me on a high.
What is better than a original nasi lemak that comes in a nicely folded pyramid?
Quarter of an egg, salted ikan bilis, a spoonful of sambal and voila!

Simply heavenly.

Bing?

Wonder what Microsoft would think of this? Move aside, Google. Welcome Ayam Bing. =)

Random Thoughts

There's a line called Limit.
We don't draw this invisible line, but one has to adhere to it.

To find understanding and respect for each other is like finding the perfect soil to grow your seeds in. If it was about pushing limits, I would like to ask why is it necessary?

Just so the strongest thrive? Are we being such pessimists that we need to constantly push ourselves as well as others to see who rise and fall?

Personal challenge is necessary.

Death is taboo.
The recent weeks brought too many grim news, I find it hard to cope, even though I wasn't directly affected.

My blessings are with the family members coping with the loss. I can't say that I understand how they felt, but I just hope they have the strength and courage and peace of mind to cope.

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I find no purpose in my life.

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I'm just being competitive and pursuing what is right.

Of Time and Bomb

What lies used to be a dead bomb but its ticking away now. What do I do to stop it? Why hadn't I leave this place with the when planted bomb when I had the chance to? Why even venture into that place knowing there was a bomb planted there, even though it was dead.

Out of curiosity? How much time do I have?

Life is about taking risks, they say. Take especially the wrong ones, I'd say. When does the learning stops? We get experience from all the wrong moves we make, but where does it end? How do we know we came out the better, and not repeat the same mistakes again and again?

Whoever came out with this "learning process" must have been very successful in the marketing business for being able to "package" even bad experiences nicely.

Californication

With all of the world's countries big and small, developed or post-war weathering the global economy turmoil, none of the countries can say they were unaffected by the inevitable. Businesses nowadays do not fight for the bigger size of profit. They were simply fighting to stay alive. Where once it touted as sure-windfall to strike a deal with the Government, perhaps it is not now.

Never would anyone imagine reading the headline that says "Iceland Goes Bankrupt".

California too, is at the brink of a financial meltdown with the State issuing mass IOUs to businesses who maintain contracts with the state of California. There is some kind of irony that the once sure-getter will not be paying businesses in monetary terms, but issue papers instead to buy time for recovery. As for us, we are not really affected by the global meltdown. Or so we think. Either that or we we clearly have been disillusioned by the media cover up and still think "It's not THAT bad".

However it's not all gloom. We welcome another California. No, not another state in the United States, but this California:

Ferarri California

In a twist of irony, the same name tells a very different story.

P@sSw0Rd

Sometimes we are the victims of our own creation.

What's the use of uber up-to-date security measures that came in the form of Passwords when after all the painstaking implementation and forcing poor staffs to remember MORE passwords (also more advanced patterns needed - involving symbols, numbers and caps? And throw in at least 10 cycles before a password can be reused?)

We have our workaround to this too. Write those passwords down and leave it lying around the desk or better, stick on the monitor for easy reference, to avoid the hassle of having it reset by a third-party helpdesk (I email you you email my boss my boss email back to you) which is obviously involves alot of work and TIME and any time consuming redundant process that directly affect work productivity will then affect our KPI and subsequently our Bonus. That's alot to risk.

My vote, write them down. Yes. That's my vote.

Endless Spirals

I rarely write about my dreams anymore. I can't seem to remember them like I used to in detail. Makes me wonder if I've lost that ability? Like all others, I don't always know what's coming ahead of time. Like the rest of us mortal souls, we can only see what's ahead when we go round the bend. Come what may, I always tell myself, what's more important is the capacity and ability to cope and deal with whatever the Higher powers may throw at you.

Life stories can be very interesting, the worse it is the better; people are willing to spend hours listening to you. Of how much crap can one take, how bitch people can be, and how shitty people make your life and the list goes on. On the other hand, listening to someone telling how they overcame shitty situation is indeed a bore. Instead of enlightening, people might even think of you as a self-absorbed.

People don't have to know how much you've gone through to understand and accept you as a person. You don't have to be bitter and feed off sympathy to make your life interesting. You know your worth and no one should ever pull you down from where you once stood tall.

We can never prepare ourselves for what's yet to come, but we are in full control on how we want things to proceed.