The Muka Karipap Menyampah

I've never felt so angry before.
Nevermind why. It's ...

I'm typing on my new Compaq Presario V3521TU Lappie. Eye candie.
Works like crap. I can't get the scroller on the touchpad to work, and the budak at the store tried to do things I already tried at home. So Dong.
Oh. Correction, its not mine. My sister's~
I still like my Dell though its ugly. More user friendly, and even the keys on the keypad is strategically placed.

I had a day of looooonnnngg meeting today. Two sessions. -.-"
And for the first time, I get so pissed with this so-called BA cos he doesn't know how to shut up.
People who attend the meeting are experts at their own field, and he acts like he knows all.
Dah lah tak fasih, wanna talk fast and he sounds worse than DonaldDuck. Crack voiced.
Menyampah kao kao.

"One curious question"
"One more question" (before people can answer his previous question)
"I don't see why you need to do that" (when people had been using it for years)

He don't understand the constraints of time zones.
Because he kept questioning why can't we do trading 24/7 since we are already in the internet age" (Hello~ dealers work 24/7 ka? You replace everyone larrrr! Doink~)

"NONONO. I'm saying when its all good. Not during system downtime. Why do we need manual intervention???"
Nor can he understand the possibility of hardware failures. And also the fact that there are inter-system communication and channels have DOWNtime tooo~ (which is frequent~)

And the bomb was, I'm sitting right opposite him.

Everyone was raising their voice and trying to explain. He will then raise his voice even though he was only talking to the person next to him. What's his problem?? Acting all big shot.

Kedongdong.

So much Love

We see the best of someone when they are put under a very difficult situation.

When it comes to things that are close to home, I break far more easily than I thought I would.
I've shed more tears in days than I ever had in years.

I pray for you to be well and I'll be there.
May you have the strength to fight it.

Babbbb

Nyarrh.
What's next?

Life is so monotonous right now.
I should just quite my job and take a year off and go travel.
Haha.

Harry Potter craze is immense. Insane, really. They should set up a counter or two or half a counter for those who didn't wish to be part of the Potter craze yet. Let us watch the lao ya movies, please.
So heartless.

I'm a big fan of Starbucks. (Not that you don't know of, I just wanna say it again). I vowed to quit coffee. I had a tall BananaJavaChip just this afternoon. One time only-larh. They serve tea too. So chill~

I'm forever hungry these days. Food is a blessing.

Seen some new places this weekend. I'm so full of it right now. Lots to think about and consider.

Cure my sweet-tooth urges please.

I should take a flight off to Penang this Friday and meet my parents, and grandma.


So much babbling.

Mo Ngan Tai

"Mo ngan tai."
See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil.

p/s: By the way, Justine lost. Short of a Wimbledon to complete a career Grand Slam.
I'm mourning.

Concede

The game is not healthy anymore.
When playfulness becomes competitive, its ruined.
It's a challenge to remain nonchalant when you are subjected to those elements, but its not impossible.
You know its only a game, and it should stay that way.
They constantly push you to the edge, apart of me threatens to leap off the cliff.

In this case, Ignorance is Bliss.

Low

One after another.
I couldn't take it. It's not too late for me to care now, and I'm trying.
People I care about are too far from where I am.
It's all uncertain. The anticipation is a pain.
The fact that I don't know how bad things are isn't helping me much.

I can cope.
Just that I'm sometimes lost. Lost in my own labyrinth of thoughts.
Nothing silly, no worries.
It's OK to question your own questions. Keeps me sane.
Though often I find no answers, nor can I provide.
I wish I could do more with friends around me, but no.
Was it me, or was it them?
My thoughts told me that it doesn't have to be that way. I can do better.
I tried too hard, perhaps?
I'm a no nonsense person when it comes to certain things. It's hard to fake it.
I end up hurting people, cos the truth hurts more than any lies.

I just want to wish my friends well. Thanks to Sumatra, we might need those surgical masks pretty soon.

Sorry, try again.

My patience expired 2 seconds ago. Dead and buried.
Or so I thought.
I got a name.
An anonymous virtual connection.
A lot of visuals.

In many ways, the guessing game is on.

Walking Away from a Possibility

I wasn't given a chance to make it happen.
I tried to but it just didn't.
What makes it so hard to catch your line of vision?
Across the room, across that space.
I was there all along, so were you.

I've never felt this for a long long time.
It's all about to become a distant memory.
I was forced to walk away and wasn't left with any options.

Walking out. Waiting for a miracle.

We Learn

Sometimes it just makes me wonder if we ever learn from past mistakes. Sometimes the situation makes it so tempting to make you give in for the second time. And the second time around, with you being aware of the consequences and possibilities of history repeating itself, you are at the verge of allowing possibilites to become reality.

But its not all bad, not all the time.

Discovering for yourself what really makes you tick is somewhat a huge finding.
I'd say that its a gray area that I am ready to explore at the moment.
You'll never know whats around that corner until you go around it. Risky as it is, I guess I'm prepared.

Without risks there can be no returns; I lived by.

A Spike in my Wallet

Comfort shopping is my weakness.

Oh let me correct this, its not comfort shopping, I wasnt comforting myself through hurting my wallet. Hehe.

It was something you lay your eyes on. But did nothing when you first saw it.

...

Then it just keeps playing in your mind, kept playing and kept playing.
In-born talent to remember things to the details. Certain things.
Until one day I just couldnt take it anymore and the result was :

A spike in my wallet.

Many of us are aware of the harm that UV rays can do to us, although most of us took care of the skin, and more often than not, forgot about the eyes. I'd rather get sun burnt that be blind.

Hence the need for protection.

*sounds so damn self-comforting

Mindful Babble

Bummer. I was trying to complete and post a bulletin on friendster when the connection just went poof. Only on Friendster. Bulletin are quite fun things to do ya know (kudos to those who came up with lists of questions that seemed to tackle a person's emotion all round).

So lets put that Friendster thingy behind. I've been trying to refresh the page and all that, without copying my post in the first place, so its all lost now. That was a darn Long posting Okay... and its now lost. Bah.

Freak weather we get these days. Its chilling at night when I sleep. But the feeling was just nice, I dread to get out of bed in these perfect sleeping conditions.

Its funny how you get yourself used to the people at work each and every day. One scan at the work area and you know who's in and who's not. It's also amazing how a simple smile can make people's day. You don't have to know them to acknowledge them. It's a kind of respect you show for people. Smiles and nods are polite, but staring is rude.

I guess I'm just pleased with how things are right now.

"Do you know what a compromise is?
Its not bending the law, its an agreement reached by mutual concessions."

A compromise wont hurt you in the long run.

Apocalypse with a capital "a" means Revelation

Little things that makes you laugh.

What if we were told that the world is going to end tomorrow? What would you do?
Will you still care about your status in the society, the amount of money you make, the car you drive, the place you live in? Will the chase for material greed still go on?

If humans unite at world's end, I'd rather it be doomsday.
If status, gender, race and religion don't matter anymore, I'll welcome doomsday.

"The end of the world is a great equaliser - who gives a rat's behind about race, religion and social status when your brain is about to be eaten?"

Raindrops

*thinks hard*

What the heck. Why is it that each time when I'm driving my car, I have all those thoughts running through my head (those things that I wanna blog about!!); but when I am sitting here trying to type it out by recalling those thoughts, I get nothing!

This is frustrating...

Ever divide rationality into categories?
*wth*

Let's say you were eyeing something expensive at the mall. You heart says go for it. But your mind tells you that you should get the hell out right now. Then comes the rational-thinking-process. You've decided against the urge. You tell yourself that you will not buy it this time, because its an unnecessary waste of money. So you do whatever necessary to get yourself out of the stressful situation you put yourself under; by removing the stress factor.

A different look at this matter. Let's say Money is not an issue, at all. Rational thinking might not be needed after all. You get what you want and when you want it, with your monetary power. *removes alot of stress factor, doesn't it?

Whenever there is a stress factor, there is the need for the ability to reason. But how some people just couldn't see how things are simple and straight forward is still beyond my comprehension. They complicate things that are far from complicated. Add more stress factors to an already stressed out mind. Rational, they claim they are.

You need logic and sense to be rational. Not the ability to twist facts just so it's easier for you to take in.

Learn how to appreciate things that you have. Be grateful and thankful that you have what you have today; achieved what you had achieved today. Greed only takes you as deep as your pocket, moderation takes you beyond.

Argh

Screw that last post.

What goes around comes around. *Repeat 100x*

Meeeoooooowwwhh!

Untitled

I never felt so defeated all my life.
Makes me want to just stab and club you with each and every single tool I can find here.
....

So pissed, I am.

Get Lost in Music

I want to do nothing except to get lost in music with my trusty sidekick.

What's on my playlist is *secret*.

Do we look Weak?

Do we look weak when we let ourselves succumb to emotional letdowns?

Or do we pride in being able to pick ourselves up from the shittiest moments?

If ever we could avoid anything like this, there won't be any chances to better ourselves and also be a stronger person emotionally and mentally.

When people talk to you about their emotional sufferings, listen instead of offering your-point-of-views. Most of the time people who are in deep shit usually have part of their brains shut; simply means that they just cannot absorb things regarding issues close to them at that point of time.

I am starting to think that I'm a little bonkers. Heartache is a pleasure. It triggers my mind. It makes me think. I enjoyed putting the pieces of puzzles together. The prize for putting it together; priceless. It just thrills me.

Mugged

I was on my way to meet up my friends at one of my friend's place, a two storey shop lot. The commercial centre was a quite remote, away from the bustling city, amongst a rapidly developing housing estate but scarcely populated.

A total of 10 lots per block. A 2 metre wide pavement lined the shop front. White flourescent lights illuminate the otherwise dark area. The entire stretch of shops are lighted up.

I walked down the walkway towards my friend's place. Weirdly enough, its totally dark from where I stand. I was at the car park next to the stretch of shoplots. My friend's place would be the second last unit from where I stand.
I was never afraid of the dark, so I walked on. Being mugged was the last thing on my mind. Never crossed my mind either. Almost 10 metres to the entrance, I see shadows of people moving in right in front of me. One, two, three, four, five, six. From their silhouettes, they are obviously men. Besides that my earlobes picks up sounds of grunts and alot of spitting. Argh..bloody disgusting.

I filled my thoughts with the possibility of being mugged for real; it just comes spinning into my conscious mind. As if on cue, I found myself speeding up the stairs, while trailing me were heavy stompings. I knew I was in trouble. I don't have time to figure out what was actually happening. I screamed for my friends to let me in, as the stompings get louder, they are getting nearer. Faster, damn it! Friends saw my terrified face and the moment I got in, I hit it shut, and locked it immediately.

Beast of men they were, they try to break their way in. Beasts they were, it gets harder with each blow towards the door. There is no such thing as steel grill or any form of reinforcement governing the door. The knob is the only silver shiny thing you can find on the door. Damn it.

While the door could still take in a couple more hard blows, I am worried about one thing: the knob. It seemed to loosen with each blow. Bang bang bang, and more bangs. The knob holding back the threat is now vulnerable, it was about to get ripped off.

*---*"

Fantastic dream.
I don't remember what happened after the guys got in. I remembered being assulted, and was asked to hand over things I can't recall. It's about me and door knobs. Door knobs.

Hey, give me a number for door knobs, I think I should get a bit of windfall through all the knobs I dreamnt of. haha.
Don't play play, if ever you dream about Andy Lau, there's a number for it too. So what not for a knob, huh?! =P

4 In the Morning

Effortless.
I don't even know if I meant what I said.
Emotions were strong, the feeling was intense.

But what does it all mean? To me? Was I in for another round of getting things messed up?

I could not give you the kind of acceptance you get from other people.
I am well aware of that, and nor was I hoping for things to change.
Things happen for a reason, and I have every piece of evidence to back that statement.

I am not who I used to be.
Complicated things are not complicated anymore.
Difficult issues are a breeze to me now.
I saw through it.

Been there, done that. Nothing else too difficult.

Devil's Horns

You don't see what the problem is, don't you?
Hehe. The dish is useless without the steel feed horn that holds the actuator that. You see the problem now?? Just like AXN claimed, "TV is useless without AXN". An ASTRO dish is useless without the Horn~

When I saw this, my jaw dropped. The previous tenant decided to scrape/unscrew/rip everything that he can take along with him. I can't comprehend why he did what he did; taking the trouble to climb up there and rip the horn from the dish, instead of taking the whole thing down. You see his ill means? "Want to watch astro? Get a new one. You cant do shit without the Horn *HAHA*". Damn. We all know they don't sell that bloody Horn as a seperate item. So doink.

Or, we can see it this way. He practically Talked to you about "Oh, you can use it". Who the hell would have thought that was actually a hint that you should at least pay them part of the installation money??

This is so unbelievable.

The next time you feel like strangling your neighbour over singing along to every song featured on MTV, don't do so, you could land yourself in jail. Rip off the Horn off your neighbour's dish.

Bothered

Over the weekend,

I saw a FAT Persian who was bothered to go chase after a FAT rat.
I thought it was kinda cute. At least he wasn't just sitting around slapping his tail onto the marble floor repeatedly in a monotonous, equal intervals between slaps. And a few other cute felines lying around.

Watched Ghost Rider. A waste of Nicholas Cage's dashing good looks in exchange of a burning skull that goes Whooosh...Fiery..

Points to ponder. Can a same reasoning method can be applied to all things?
It's an abstract question and doesn't necessarily has a clear answer. It's a matter of opinion and your take on the question.

Happy Chinese New Year!

It's the time of the year when...
You eat like its nobody's business
3 meals daily became 7
Indulging in ALOT of cookies and cakes is not sinful
Fireworks and firecrackers are legal though its banned~
Old Town Cafe became the most happenning place in town
and not surprisingly, ALL gatherings were held there..

It's high time of the year when...
You dig deep into your vocabulary reserves for the sweetest of greetings (and not to mention, longest)
Your sense of dressing gets judged publicly
and your hair
and your shoes
Interrogations interrogations interrogations
Questions are thrown smack at your face and this time around, they demand answers.

Memorable moments:
A reunion with the people I've known the longest, 20 years. woohoo!
The best part about the reunion is seeing how people you've known for the past decade became who they are today. Past conflicts forgotten, friendships renewed.

I find myself still talking about my late doggie. I don't think I'd ever have another dog like that. It's hard to settle for a less smarter one. Sigh. Plus I'm not allowed to get one any sooner, cos mum demands that I take care of my own doggie, not just leave it hanging around the house while I'm away in KL. Ish. I miss seeing Dan jumping up and down in excitement upon seeing my car at the front gate. I miss seeing Dan and his best mate the crazycat playing with each other. I miss seeing Dan chewing crazycat's ears til its dripping wet with saliva. I miss seeing his frightened face whenever the lightning strikes. He's so loveable.

Unwind unwind

What better way to unwind after a long day at work?

Life's been hectic. Nothing else besides work. Other than the necessities like food and enough rest. Imagine laying motionlessly on the bed when its only barely 1030pm. But at least I get a really good rest each night, the last thing I saw is the 1030 on the wall clock the night before, and the next on the line was 8am on my alarm.

Sleeping is after all a big deal. Heh. I recalled someone once said that sleeping at the wrong times of the day, might affect your mood, ie getting up a little moody or at the Off side.. However I never sleep on afternoons (otherwise I'm under medication due to sickness). Some just pig the afternoon away. I wish I could. Perhaps others arent gifted with that, so I'm gona try to discover that hidden 'talent'.

Being a close friend to others doesn't mean you know every single detail about the person's whereabouts, what they are up to, and Everything about that person. Some people just don't get it. Hence the phrase "You're closer to this person, you should know it better than I do". Even in relationships, the idea of "reporting all the time" is just so not necessary.

Its funny how these people just prefer the shortcut way of winning over the person they claimed to love. As in finding out about a person from a third party. I don't see how they can put the information they get to good use. You can go "Oh this person is like this this and that. Cos someone said so". Cos someone said so? Nah, cos you don't know shit about what you're dealing with. How can you claim that you love someone when you'd prefer to find out about that particular person through someone else? But at the same time, I cannot deny the fact that sometimes when we're too focused on something, we sometimes lose our judgements. Your mind shrinked, everything narrows down when it comes to this. Therefore its only normal to seek a third party person, to shed some light on the matter.

But what if seeking for advise goes out of way? What about when suspicion and doubt were thrown at your "light shedding speech"? You cant possibly expect everyone's point of view to be exactly the same as yours. Just don't work this way.

I guess that things are clearer when you see things the way they are, your own untainted opinions and through your own observation. You should know where this is going, and how its gona be, not what others tell you. It's not a one or two day thing, it takes time. Shortcuts don't work all the time. You're still clueless about the whole thing in the end.

A Child's Duty

A mother's broken heart. One with shattered hopes and dreams of seeing her offspring becoming somebody in life. It wasn't high hopes she placed upon them, it's just what a mother would want for them, a sufficiently good life. A mother's wasted efforts to pave way for a better future when all others failed.

A child's responsibility. A child old enough to understand the consequences of his/her actions should know the difference between right and wrong and should to be capable of obeying
the unwritten law of being filial.

Part of growing up is being under constant peer pressure. It's a subconscious thing we feel that drives us to do things that we otherwise won't see ourselves doing. It gives you that sudden uumph that makes you brave for one second, and do whatever you did in that mere second.

Friends are the most important people, besides your immediate family members, that might permanently affect the way your life take shape. For better or worse. Put the wrong company, the inability to reason and prioritize together and go figure. Can't exactly blame their friends entirely, cos sometimes its not a choice. It happens by chance, when reasoning is something they hadn't learnt at that point of their lives, yet it was the time when they were introduced to the worse of all companies. Using age as a scale of which we place our expectations on is however not quite fair due to differences in personal and psychological maturation, expectations does not correspond to a particular age for every person.

The pain root deep into the parents hearts. Deep down they knew they have to do something about it, but simply ran out of steam by now. Realisation of their wrongdoings doesnt come by overnight. After all, Rome wasn't build in a day. But what are the options they are left with?

I pray for things to get better.

We are in an era where technology are indirectly pushing crime rates higher. During our age, we don't skip classes just to go to the internet cafe. Gone are those days where you see kids running around in the front porch, making up imaginary cooking sessions made out of leaves and treebranches. We can do everything with a couple of clicks on the mouse. Couple of key presses and we're done with what used to take an entire morning of running around town. It's a matter of convenience, but I guess everyone abuse it. Couch potato reinvented. Perhaps the cause of the rising rate of obesity lies there. I'm not against everything wired. In fact I do most of my things in front of the screen. Bills and everything else. I'm strolling that line for a living yo~. It's just that the drastic changes it has on people nowadays that sometimes gives me headspins.

p/s: Oh peeps, check out PointBlanc's IpohMali. Its a great song with fantastic lyrics. (He was former PoeticAmmo's rapper)

-.-+

Damn. I was about to write a piece about my thoughts when a lizard attacked a 6 legged insect that omits a foul odor...

Perfect...

Straightjacket Feeling

Hate is a strong word.
It's a four letter word we always confuse with anger and confusion.
It's a Four letter word besides the F word we often abuse.
It's the word we use on things we don't like.
It's the word we use on people we don't fancy or had something against.

Love is an equally strong word.
It's a four letter word we always confuse with liking and infatuation.
It's a four letter word besides Miss that we often misuse.
It's the word we use to describe our fondness for someone or something.
It's the word we use on people we claim to like or had something for.

But how can we hate someone we claim to love? Or used to love? It had always been a gray area, love and hate. Without any clear line seperating two of the strongest emotions a person can ever experience, we rely solely on our own judgements. It takes a strong mind to get over all the emotional attacks thrown at you. Self-destruction is by choice, it's not the only way out.

Before you start screaming that your life is giving you a hard time, think twice. It happens to everyone else. It's a test of will, faith and trust. It takes a lifetime to forget someone. A quest you might never find an ending. It's something you'd have to live with for the rest of your life. Along with decisions we might regret, or be grateful that you made.

It's these experiences in life that will make us a stronger person.

Paint

"There are some experiences in life which shouldn't be demanded twice from any man" - George Bernard Shaw



Home sweet home.
Grass is greener, air is fresher, time crawls.
What's better than waking up each day (un-military style~) to a hot cup of coffee and breakfast served?
What's better than getting out of bed each day just to have breakfast with ya family and go back to sleep?

Ahh...

Anyway, I took sis' CLK to KL. Pleasant ride. Maiden trip out of town, and so far south to central Malaysia. But I reckon it was a pleasant one. And oh, the news that grazed the cover recently, the tropical storm, I experienced it first hand.


I drove with 150% care!

Yummy. Perfect weather conditions.
Looks like a tornado/cyclone, but its not. Just a bunch of dark angry clouds.
You should be able to tell of why it took so long to get to the north as compared down south. Picturesque. Believe me, it looked even better off-the-picture.
Thong-wearing bus? Interesting.

I know..keeping your hands and eyes busy while driving is dangerous, but I can't resist~

Does that make you wanna go out of KL right this moment?

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, people!

Nothing new. I start the new year almost the same every year. Getting a ticket for faulty tail lights was so last year. This year, it was a "blast". I meant it, literally. The year that was ended with a game of badminton, junior against the seniors. The match ended a draw, cos we ran out of time. All of us got ourselves a good shower (a cold one~) and headed to Neway, Cheras. I'm just a bathroom singer, not public. (I still don't understand why we had to travel all the way from Megah to Cheras for the same place we can get at Bandar Utama. It's not like anyone's gonna spend the final moments of 2006 in a cramped room singing our lungs out) Or why a karaoke session at all? Why not we just pig out on food and talk crap instead? Don't bother reading.

The session at Neway began with us pigging out on food, cos we're all drained of our final reserves of energy to do something else. And then the singing session. Ladida.

I noticed the little notice reminding the patrons not to throw cakes and stuff in the room - Dont dirty the place. Will charge additional RM200 for that. Well I thought, its nothing to be bothered about. Nobody's playing with cakes tonight.

Cut to the chase (You don't expect me to give you names of the songs they sing, don't you?), came the countdown. The 10 numbers counting down. ... 3,2,1. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
(PssssSTTTT FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU SPlat splat splat TUTUTUTUTUTUTUUTUTUTUTUT)

Genius. Came the spraying of the most forbidden of substances. Someone was turned into Santa. Hey, I thought christmas was over, we wont need it until end of this year. I wasn't Santa for that night, but I think I had a mouthful of the foul smelling "substance". Before any of us got up, the Neway guys are already at our door. Perfect. Now the whole room looked as though something just exploded. -.-"

Thats when the RM200 I cant be bothered about came into the picture. Haha. They were gonna charge that to our bill. Ironically, we're all laughing at the whole incident as if it was a Joke. Thank goodness we have someone with us who managed to do some of the talking with the "more important people" there. We were spared but we had to do the cleaning.

What did I do for New Year you might ask? I was wiping a black PVC couch. Heh.

It's a brand new year. Some things never change.

People still campout at coffee places. Looked as if it will explode anytime. Anytime.

My new year resolution is to quit coffee. Again. I opted for smaller cups (the only problem is that its a single shot of pure espresso, served in a tiny little cup). Potent as hell. I still love the pastries they have. Tell me I'm gonna quit soon. I mean it.

Happy new year everyone!

Goodbye

Year 2006 is almost over and done. 2 more weeks and we can kiss 2006 goodbye.
Hello 2007.

Early this year...

Got booked an hour into the new year.
Still reminiscing about the past, literally living in it.
Still unsure about alot of things.
I run for hours just to mentally run away from mindfcuking thoughts. (although i never like jogging~ - figured that it worked)
Was a one time movie freak. No more. I'm so outdated now.
Worked hard, played hard.
Realised that I trust people too easily. I was entangled into a single sided story. Silly~
As the days passed by, I am emotionally retarded. Partially handicapped.
I'm too far from that Word. Nor was I looking for it.
I'm tired.

Sometime mid year...

Badminton became a part of my life again.
Played like its nobody's business.
A drastic change of lifestyle.
(thats why I dont have time to catch all the movies in the cinema~)
I'm glad that its towards the "healthier" side..
The more people you mix around with presents new problems.
Secrets, stories, and backgrounds.
It's a challenge.

Nearing the end of the year..
I'm still in one piece, bracing for the brand new year ahead. =)

What? Who are you blaming?

Sexual harrasment. Why are policewomen blamed instead of sharing the blame?

Promotions. Women should not indulge themselves in pursuing for promotions, because they have to take care of the family. Guess the definition of women as housekeepers remains.

Stray CCTV. Blamed on women who dressed sexily. She attracted stray cameras, so its her fault.

Malaysia Boleh!

Game Plan

They say different people have their own views on things. It's perfectly normal to look at the same thing in different ways. Bite this.

Love needs a game plan. Your every step and every move should move you closer to the person you label as the "Ultimate Aim". If you stutter when you talk to the person you like, drag your friends in to do some human marketing. Think of yourself as a brand. Do you want to be Prada or Bata? Of course Prada. Therefore you need friends to help you connect to your Ultimate Aim since you're hopeless at that. Bring a fortuneteller wannabe with you. He/she should be able to "read" your Ultimate Aim; at least that's what he/she thinks.
Never give up, keep trying day in and day out until you reach your goal. *Repeat if necessary

... Since when Love became WarCraft?

From my understanding, you're not dealing with robots. There are no game plans. Plans arent failproof. It's a person complete with feelings, thoughts and a personality, with a sense of judgement. Do you still think that a game plan is what you need?

This vs That

I barely have time to watch tv. No CSI, no documentaries, no MTV.

Hello early mornings. Goodbye late-nights. (mental & physical torture~)

TTDI is my new place, for now. Bye bye M Tower.

A place where the the 13th floor were labelled 12A.

I spend more time on the roads and in front of the computer than anything else.

My eyes are getting a good beating out of it.

I am seated in a place where I can't tell if its day or night; other than my faithful Swatch.

Cramped, messy and noisy.

Stinks, its warm and I think its perfect for fungus to grow.

Computer terminals are yellowish white in colour and Dusty (I miss seeing all-black Dell computers complete with LCD monitors)

I am not used to seeing H.U.G.E servers being planted everywhere in a cramped, already - overcrowded room.

I missed the slim rack servers.

I'm a spoilt brat. M Tower spoilt us~

Missed the strawberry scented floor polish in the washroom that gets cleaned twice a day.

It stinks. It's small. Has got stale air that can kill a fly in an instant.

Missed the 26 high speed elevators servicing all 44 floors. (I have 8 elevators servicing 22 floors now~ pathetic)

Missed the security.

Miss the convenience of having a bank underneath my feet..

...

We only realise what we've got when its gone.

It's going out of Control

Rape cases are almost regulars on the dailies. Not surprised and is almost completely unfazed. We only shake our heads in disgust, and thats that. What more, since our politicians can come up with the most peculiar-sounding comments, why should we bother then?

Someone called up earlier on, telling me that her half a year old kitten is pregnant - I'm a cat lover (also other animals in general). So which perv feline would do that to a barely a year old kitty? Gee. I guess in the cat society, there are evil-minded cats too. Perverts. After all, we've all heard of the glove-stealing feline. No big deal, its just another title that cats earned.
Apparently the kitten wasnt raped. It was because of her gatal-ness, she went "clubbing" day in and day out, and ended up getting herself pregnant; she should have stayed home like others. I guess cats learn from our politicians as well, hence the infamous remark : women get raped because they dress sexily. DuH.

So what do we do to the pregnant kitten? Someone asked if vets can perform abortion for a cat. Heh. Seriously, I'm not sure if there is such a thing. If the termination of a human pregnancy is unacceptable (according to our Laws), what about cats? Will the cat owners be subjected charges against infringement of a ridiculous law we might not be aware of?

Considering the options that the kitten has, the worst is yet to come.
1) Kitten carries on with the pregnancy, gives birth to a litter of kittens, but didnt have the slightest idea of how to take care of the newly born kittens - kittens emerge in a thin,membranous sac which is bitten off and eaten by the mother cat. That's not all. Newborns will have to be kept warm by its mother, otherwise they are at risk for death due to exposure. Sounds scary, don't it?

Thats not all, what about choosing a location to give birth? Cats are private animals. They prefer hidden places with no one else present. Sometimes we think that we're being nice by setting up a place for your cat to give birth in, but most of the times, that will not happen. (People have a bad habit of doing things you try to refrain yourself from doing)

So what does an inexperienced and immature kitten do? Giving birth in the bushes seemed like a good idea. Dense leaves give enough shelter and privacy, away from people.

But, is she aware of the other dangers of giving birth in the dense bushes? Fireants. I've seen what fireants can do to newly born kittens. Believe me, its not a pleasant sight. It was painful. One of my cats, once gave birth to a litter of kittens in the midst of the bushes. Guess thats what she learnt from her own mother - that's where she was born. Selecting the wrong location exposed her kittens to the unexpected danger - fire ants. Leaving her kittens to fill her empty stomach, she left them unprotected. While their fur is still damp from the membrane that they were born in, it attracts the fireants. In minutes, the kittens are almost entirely covered by fireants, and they were unable to defend themselves. I'm sure you are aware that fire ants can inflict a painful sting. Imagine being bitten all over. The cries led me to find out where the kittens are. By the time I found them, constant twitching made them look as if they are having spasms, which is actually their reaction to each sting. I cringed, and immediately start removing the ants from the kittens. Squeezing smacking pinching them flat. The mother cat stood by as I tried to remove the ants. There's nothing she can do. The panic look made me go faster. Each bite leaves a sensation a sensation similar to what one feels when they get burned by fire. Their tender skin covered by the minimal of fur was not enough to protect them from the stings. They did not survive the ordeal. My cat spend a couple of hours licking clean her dead kittens, spend hours with them. She knew it was all over. Guess cats have emotions too, and it shows in their faces. It was a sad picture. I lost my appetite for 2 days. I cried. I still get goosebumps each time I think about the whole incident; even when I was typing this. It was a bad experience. But my cat learned from her mistake, bringing up a litter of 4 in the next pregnancy, all cute and cuddly and healthy.
*Source: Years of cat/dog observation at home

2) Hungry male cats who takes kittens as food. -.-"
The most disgusting one I've even encountered was seeing a male cat with a kitten's head between his jaws. Enough said. Thats sick.

Missed my late cats and dog.

p/s: We know that this world is going crazy when sick things happen.

2's Company, 3's a Crowd

Alot of things happened lately. I never saw this coming, not this one. I almost freaked out when I found out.

I guess I had some sort of phobia regarding certain things. I'm not gona drop names, and to those who knows what I am talking about, bingo, those who doesn't, go figure!

It gives me chills just thinking about it.

You see this group of people with common interest. It stops there. Normal conversation revolves around that common interest that we have and all things general. In your mind, you draw lines clearly, as not to allow them to penetrate into your private life, you feel there is no need to. It's funny how intuition decides for us who we can trust and who we cant. Sometimes its not entirely about trust, its about being comfortable telling things that you normally need to dig your guts out to tell. However, there are times when you meet people that you simply felt ever so comfortable to talk to, and you can just yak away about your private life as if its just another ordinary story.

But what if some people tries to cross that invisible line that you've carved in your mind? Unnecessary dramatical stories, unnecessary questions that require answers, unnecessary phone calls and short messages. The frequency? Endless.

From their point of view, you are their close friend. Just because you never fail to lend an ear each time they need to spill their inner thoughts? What if you only see them as just friends? Not that close friend we-share-every-single-thought kind? It has to be mutual, isn't it?

They cannot understand the fact that being part of a group doesnt mean that everything has to be done together. What is wrong if you choose to mingle more with certain group members whom you click well with, or already share a close bond with? The fact that if the entire group were to hang out together, chances are the number of topics discussable revolves around that same old thing, cos you simply refuse to go further.

It's a big mess right now, and I didn't quite like the idea of someone I'm not willing to be held answerable to calling up all the time asking me where I am, what am I doing and who am I with.

And the fact that some other issues pop up out of nowhere, freaks me out now. Period. I feel threatened and stalked. Buddy-stalked.

Mess. Mess. Mess.

I crap a whole lot here. Too much input. Needed output. I just dont feel comfortable.
My definition: 2-3's company, more than that its a crowd~

Wuahsss!

A new place that I fell in love with. A single factor that can draw alot of Wuahs and Uhhs and Ahhs and make my jaw drop is architectural wonders. Unfortunately I didnt have my camera with me, and have to make do with my bloody phone camera, which apparently didn't quite let me down by capturing the beauty of the moment. Simply stunning.

After dinner we went round for a spin around the Garden City/Intelligent City, the view was simply breathtaking. This is not my first time here; I've been here countless of times, day or night, but the view last night simply blew me away. Turning left from the traffic lights, onto the Seri Wawasan bridge, my jaw dropped almost instantly. The bridge came into view, along with its stunning array of white lights illuminating each and every arch.

It simply gives you that instant ummph that you need, making you proud of what Dr M had done for the country. His visions. And his accomplishments.

Our beloved nation, had come a long way. Cities proceeded to grow into megacities, everything else seemed to be catching up with other megacities around the world. However, our society never seem to grow out of its old shell. We never learn to better ourselves, and judge things with a open mind.

Every now and then, we have "interesting" articles in the dailies, about people who held important positions blurting out blunt comments when questioned. Regarding the CCTV incident, this was the response: "If the dress was not sexy, the incident would not have happened. " This is simply unacceptable. In fact it made the rest of us commoners chuckled and be embarassed with such a weak excuse.

Instead of trying to move the country forward, we're moving backwards with insignificant issues being given HUGE attention.
Mat rempits.
Heh. Perhaps if given that our public transportation is efficient, safe and RELIABLE (breaks down too often dontcha think? =P ), perhaps we wont have despatch boys riding kapcais around town in the day, and REMP-ing the streets at night doing supermans!
Bahasa rojak.
I still don't see whats the fuss about already-there signages that combined English and Malay words. Touch 'n Go? It was introduced eons ago, and why is it that it suddenly became an issue now? Instead of looking into other aspects of our society, they waste their time fighting over small issues like that. Sentuh dan PERGI!! Tag Bestari? It's hard to imagine. Countless of names simply flood my mind right now, and I cant imagine what its like if they are all ripped off and replaced.

Most of us thinks that we are on par with the rest of the world. Think again. We think that we are an open-minded bunch of people. Are we, really? Are we the magnanimous people that we claim to be? Are we ready to be acceptant of differences in norms? Why is there a definition for social norms in the first place? Just to fit in nicely as just another piece of puzzle on the street?
Close friends around me, ybmaht included, will understand what crap I'm speaking about here.

We have a long way to go, dont we? Dont agree with me? I shall shoot you and blow you up. *grins* Malaysia spells FUN.

When Patience comes second

This is what happens when people get impatient of the road. Although the road clear ahead, with slight drizzle gentle dotting your windscreen, this trailer simply skidded off the road, causing an almost 5km of cars lining up behind the obstructing trailer...

Malaysians...

Scrolls and Robes, Math and Symbols

Graduating from the best universities doesn't make you a smart person.
After all, its all in the papers. And oh, a scroll, you get to put on that Harry Potter robe (minus the broom~) and the wide smile on your face.

OK. I'm kidding. It's a big deal! It is!


It makes me wonder how our brain ticks. How does symbols are being deciphered and interpreted by our brains? How did it ever mean anything at all? How do we reason things? Those math geniuses who could untangle complex mathematical equations with a breeze, is the ultimate WOW factor.

The next time you hit the streets, Look left and look right. Look around you. Everywhere you see are people who had at least a degree.

But why is it so hard for some to understand simple words and clear images?

Can you see what this fella is doing?

Has universities and higher education made students a much complex individual that prevented our brains from operating in simple mode?

Just a Little bit of Sense

She hang on to him like he's her lifeline.
It was made so clear that even the blind can see.
Was it necessary? There's nothing wrong with being affectionate. But watch who your crowd is. Hello..This is not a show. We're in the middle of a meal.. hehlow.... whats with getting touchy feely? Do that elsewhere man.

There's a limit to freedom of doing-whatever-you-want. Doing whatever you want doesnt mean you can do it everywhere and anywhere. OK. The previous statement simply contradicts with the the word FREEDOM. But I guess we're brought up in a society where were taught to segregate what is considered morally acceptable and what isnt. Other "moral" lessons, we learn through the process of growing up. The basic we know getting touchy feely (especially over the dinner table)

Touchy feely over the dinner table? What does that look like? It creates a kind of uncomfortable air over it. Being publicly affectionate doesnt make you any better a couple, doesnt exert more love than those who uses a little more common sense. Its all bordered by just a little COMMON SENSE.

Stealing glances is sexy. Clinging to one another aint.
The whole world doesnt have to know that. Even if they caught you guys stealing glances and exchanging shy smiles, its still sweet.

Many will object my "kuno" thinking. It's just how I felt. It can be show in a million other ways, without making others roll their eyes and yawn.

Love doesn't always have to be the conventional kind.

Intel Beside

I used to think that it can NEVER be removed. Undetachable. You know, most of my itchy handed friends will attempt to dig the precious label, either that or they will just run their fingers on it over and over again in hope that it'll fall off just like that. Haha. Fat hope. Sticky stuff dont just fall out.

According to some friends, this logo (pix, above) is the only proof that certifies the processor you're using. So, this is worth as much as the processor itself? (what theory..)

One fine day, ...










It ended up somewhere it shouldn't.

By Someone who used to believe that its Undetachable (how silly's that?)

Okok. This is so wrong. Destruction of private property. But heck, I stick it back. Looks just as it was before. So hey, impossible is nothing eh?

The Little Nuisance

Remember when we were little, when we were first sent to primary schs to attend proper classes, most of us uttered "yeeeee ... kutu", at least once. Why is it that this kutu fever is so wide spread in schools back then? Of course hygiene plays a part in this, but how did it happen in the first place?! We have absolutely no idea who started the "outbreak" in schools. (of course, by the time you spotted that someone has been attacked by the K creature, check yours, you're probably Gotcha-ed by the Ks already...)

There are certain race of people whom we often assume the notorious K originated from (read: the Source). Subconsciously, we're all racists back then, not generally, of course (forgive us, we're just 7 year olds - and knew nothing about racism). Only when it comes to certain issues such as the K problem. We were racists, fellow Conventians... Simply hard to swallow. But I guess all of us eventually grew up to love the company of people from other races that made up us Malaysians.

Back to the point.
Not to forget the tedious part of exterminating these little creepy crawlies...
The thorough combing, the squashing (eeks!), and the medicament used.. ugh. Not to mention the smell and how greasy it is.. (the medicament is easily obtained from any government hospitals..for the minimum of charges or FREE)

You'll never know how far imagination can take you..
The thought of it crawling everywhere around your head, into your ears (gasps!), onto your pillows and sheets, scavenging around, feeding on your scalp *pukes*

I'm getting goosebumps by the loads just writing a piece about it. Here's why.

*picture deleted immediately from author's laptop immediately after posting

I wonder if kids these days still face the same problem. Nightmare.

p/s: Paris Hilton can sing. No doubt. I guess promoting yourself as a dumb blonde pays off. No dumb person can make it big in every field you choose to get involve. Initially it only attracts all the wrong kind of attention, all the wrong news in tabloids and magazines and all the wrong perceptions, all the wrong labels. Guess she makes alot of people chew and swallow their words about her? Heh. This is the best trick ever.

I Care

Priorities are what that made part of our daily lives. In fact, it was the way you prioritise that makes you the kind of person you are. More than often, negligence comes into the picture.

Prioritising is also the culprit, the reason why we sometimes shun the people we care about. It's a huge mistake to let it happen. I realised that I am taking things for granted, but I kept repeating it until it comes to a point where its almost beyond recovery, and I'm still not doing anything about it. To reverse all that seemed all impossible, and I guess I don't have the guts to make thing right again. I avoid it instead. Sigh.

People prioritise because they see lesser of something as compared to the other. They reckon that attention should be divided unevenly and things they think are important to them takes a bigger slice of attention. Occupies the most time. Common sense tells you that there's a serious imbalance among people and things that are important to you. And it took so long to make you realise that things are actually repeating itself again?

The way I am behaving right now, reminds me of my secondary school years, whom the people I shun are the ones I owed my life to, my parents. It just feels like I'm repeating my mistake again, and this time around it happened to people close to me. I took them for granted. For my love of the sport. It consumes me wholly, enough to make my relationship with my parents fail, and my studies suffered.

There's a need to find balance. The Yin and Yang of life.

I'm sorry.

Spam!

"I think I saw a picture of you. Is that you?" (I kinda forgot the exact sentence, but it sounds something like this)
Haha. Click on that link and you're dead meat. Your computer, I meant. Or just MSN.
It's pretty tempting to click on that link, especially when it mention something about YOU, and a picture of you supposedly posted somewhere on the Internet. You are just so tempted to click on that link and find out for yourself.

Curiosity kills the cat, almost. When I first saw that kind of link, coming from a friend that OFTEN send over links to funny videos and music clips, I was so tempted to click on that link. But then again, my intuition tells me something else.
It's not the first time such a thing happened. So why take the bait now?

Just last night, bro texted me and told me about the trojan. Home pc got infected, and what happens next is his msn account starts spamming all the people in his list, sending the malicious link to each of them, spread it other unsuspecting MSN users.

So becareful pals, dont fall for phony temptations. Most of the time it promises nothing but destruction.

Sticks and stones

We reminisce about old times, when things were how they were at that time, or at least the way we remembered it. Be it happy times or sad times. Unsuspecting stray words that come from the mouths of others simply sets your brain rolling back in time, dishing everything you put in the past back into the present. Simply flooding your mind with the past.

Hit some stones and rocks along the way. Thats when you plan a detour. Go elsewhere, do something else. All those questions come into mind. Quit, make that necessary change and never look back. Saying is easy, the execution is a bit elusive.

"When your whole life goes up in smoke, its time for a promotion".
Choosing love over career, or career over love. At least if that makes you happy, you should go for it. Both are equally important, but sometimes we're not the lucky few who get to keep both.

It's more than just knowing what you're doing at work. It's about knowing and understanding what you're doing matters more thn just blindly doing whatever you should be doing. It's frustrating at times when you dont have enough access to the necessary information, which is closely guarded by people who made themselves important by having total control over it. Of course, if you were them, you'd do the same thing to maintain your value.

Try something new. Go on a totally different route. Explore new opportunities. Evaluate options. Find the courage. Take that risk.

The pursuit has begun.

Introvert?

Dear Yahoo!:
How long does an average dream last?
Elizabeth Reno, Nevada
Dear Elizabeth:
Although it may seem like we're dreaming from the instant we fall asleep until the moment we wake up, the average visit to Neverland is actually far shorter. According to the National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke, people spend an average of two hours dreaming each night. Dreams "almost always" occur during REM sleep, when the body experiences "rapid eye movement, loss of reflexes, and increased pulse rate and brain activity." Your ability to remember your dreams depends a lot on your personality. Newsweek explains that introverts tend to remember their nocturnal adventures better than extroverts. In terms of the subject matter, males and females often dream about the same things. Again according to Newsweek, 73% of men and 74% of women have dreamed of falling. OK, but how long does an average dream last? Depending on who you ask (or which site you visit), a dream can last anywhere from a matter of seconds to 45 minutes. We were unable to find an official answer, but this post from AnswerBag claims dreams last "about 15 minutes on the average." Dream Moods states people dream one to two hours per night, fitting in about four to seven dreams. If, like us, you're wondering why you dream about showing up naked to piano recitals, these dream interpreters may help you find some answers.

*source: Yahoo!

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Stumbled across this article when I was taking a break from work.

Introverts tend to remember their nocturnal adventures better than extroverts? haha. With such detailed recall of my own dream ... I'm officially an Introvert?? *grabs an "INTROVERT" sticker and sticks to forehead*

In fact, people dont always remember dreams probably because they got out of bed right away after waking up. Remember my military style wakeup procedures? With that, bet I couldnt remember a single bit.

Cab Horror

Hot sunny afternoon. Lunch time. Lady got out of a bank, hopped on a cabbie waiting outside the building. Usually people take empty cabbies. Surprisingly, this lady, couldnt be bothered to notice that there was another guy at the front seat next to the cabbie driver. She took it.

Well. As you might have guessed, it didnt end up well. She was driven to another bank, asked to withdraw money through her ATM card, which has a withdrawal limit of 3k per day. I guess they maxed out on that...And robbed her of her valuables.

She's lucky to have survive that without any physical injuries. Or perhaps they cash in alot on her, and therefore she was released unharmed? There are a thousand other possible things they could have do to her. I'll leave that to your imagination.

You might be thinking that going for lunch without your wallet sounds like a better solution? Well, not quite. Heartless people like these, wouldnt leave without cashing in on anything. And since you have nothing for them to cash in on, they could have harmed you, maybe a stab or two. A slash or two?

So people, with wallet or without?

Its not safe anywhere anymore. Watch your own backs.

...

I single-handedly sabotaged a vacuum cleaner.


-.-''

Sing me a Love Song

Fairy tale endings, living happily ever after, you and me forever.

Things like that weren't exactly made up. There must be some truth to it that that makes people spread them like ferns releasing spores, winding into the sky, along with the wind. Perhaps they were attainable. Perhaps its something that's within a mortal person's reach. Perhaps I'm too much of a realist. I used to tell people that I don't believe in happy endings. Not when you're in a situation where things doesnt favour you.

Prove me wrong.
This is something very individual. You can see it which ever way you like. Suit yourself.
It's just a point of view, nobody lives by it.

We know it when its worth every single heartbeat to make the relationship work. Everything just comes naturally, without us even trying. If you think that you tried too hard, perhaps you're not meant for each other?

It takes time to build the trust and understanding about each other in any given relationship. Many thinks that a typical relationship should consist of a dominant party and another, submissive, so that it balances out the differences. I cakap, you dengar. Traditionally, male dominant, women submissive. Sadly, most women still think that it is just right for them to behave that way, which sometimes translates as "womanly behavior". While other women are fighting for gender equality, don't you think that the womanly behaviour simply contradicts the claim itself?

So much for the fight for equality, imagine the right hand trying to sculpt a sand castle, while the left is busy destroying everything the right hand is trying to make. So at the end of the day, nothing gets done. Starting a story without a beginning and an end.

Those who believed that they were born to this world to please men, sod them.
Those who believed that their very existence is to grow up, stay beautiful, grab a man, get married and get all settled down, and spend the rest of their lives clinging to their man, and hope that not a thing changes, and live happily ever after; minus a career, minus a decent education. You get the picture?

If only life was that easy.

Perhaps I was wrong about what I claimed, statistically; but I'm sure there are some truth in it. By the way, I don't need statistics to back me up, I just need some thoughts, some observations and some conversations.

Hundredth + 1

I live in a dorm, with 9 other people. We were not segregated, gender wise. Not that it matters, I cant even remember the faces nor the names of the people I'm sharing the dorm with. It doesnt bother them either.

The dorm I live in, is just one of the many dorms at the Dorm Park. People from all walks of life. The dorms are mobile cells that can be easily moved from place to place. Think Trailer Park. Dorms were seperated from other dorms by just metal grills. It's basically a huge CELL that fits 10 people easily without any signs of looking as a cramped living quarter. The Idea? Prison cells. Difference: More Spacious and comfy, and its not black and white. It's colourful. No privacy (hence the grills). Don't ask me why anyone would choose to live in such a place.

Nothing specifically high tech is present at the Dorm Park. I'm talking about security. The dorm is accessible through sliding doors, yes, metal, and locking it means using one small pathetic padlock. Just ONE. Security: NONE. Ziltch.

When there are many groups of people living together in a small park, there are sure to be conflicts amongst the tenants. People stick to their dorm-mates, their groups, and fiercely defend themselves, watching each other's back.

I'm not that keen on internal political issues such as that, so I remained the observer and the person of a few words. Keeping mum about everything doesnt mean that I'm left out of the constantly boiling conflicts. That happens when you're in a group. I'm indirectly responsible for the things that my dormmates did, even though I had no hands on anything, but just because I am part of the group, it got me tangled in the mess.

Our belongings are simply left in our backpacks, we have no shelf units nor any storage units to keep our belongings. Oh, did I forget to mention that the people there are mostly backpackers looking for a cheap place to crash. New faces can be spotted almost everyday, perhaps that explains why I have problems remembering names and faces of even my dormmates. There is a silent unspoken rule that everyone understands, "We shall not take what does not belong".
It doesnt only apply here, in fact, it should be a universal rule that everyone know by heart.

Each morning all cells will be emptied, we are not allowed to stay in the dorm during the day, as part of a drive to make the people go out and explore the place. Or make themselves useful, earn a buck or two. Most people here travel on a shoestring, therefore they need to earn that extra cash to move along.

Emptied cells simply means that what seperates a thief from our belongings is that ONE padlock. Of course, its the rule of thumb that NO ONE should EVER leave anything valuable in a place like that. However, it sometimes slips our mind ...

We've been living here for the past 3 weeks, and everything feels safe. We formed a close knit relationship among dormmates, and everything just felt in place. Everyone fits in like pieces of puzzles. Theft rate, ZERO. However, things change when we start to take things easy, when we let our guard down, and make yourself vulnerable to threats. When you felt comfortably safe, that's when everything crumbles.

We came back one day, only to find the padlock lying in a awkward position. I knew something bad happened. Bad. GOsh. My things. MY things. NO. This cant be happening. We left the earlier the day, leaving behind all our belongings, since we decided carry nothing but IDs cos we were doing some volunteering work for the community. We don't need that extra 10 pounds on our backs for such work. Huge mistake.

I lost my entire backpack. Everything. My Oakleys, my cellphone, my PDA, my iPod, cash, and worse, my digital camera; along with hundred MBs worth of pictures that I wont be able to recover nor get a second shot of, clothes, my backpacking essentials. Everything. I broke down upon finding that. The rest of my dormmates suffered just about the same fate. Lost everything. The thought of losing so many things all at once is simply too painful. The material loss aint that bad, it was the intrusion into people's lives through their belongings that hurts. Felt "raped" of my things, and it felt dirty.

Bastards. Those who did the things they do. Taking things that does not belong. I'm disgusted. It hurts. The thought of it kills me almost instantly. Chicken shit losers who finds the easy way to get things that are seemingly out of their reach. I believe in Karma, just as how my sister use to tell me about it. It doesnt make me feel any better. Devastated, I decided to get out of that place. My trust was betrayed. I had myself to blame.

I sat at the sidewalks, mourning at my loss. It's still painful. A middle-aged couple stop by their tracks, and asked me if I'm alright. They're from Germany, residing in the hotel on whose pavement I was sitting on. Shuomo, a grand 6star hotel in the luxury strip of the city. I have no idea how far I've wandered penniless from Dorm Park, and ended up there exhausted and hungry. They offered to buy me dinner at a posh al fresco restaurant just across the street from Shuomo. God bless them. I shed tears of gratefulness and be reminded that there are still good people left in this world. Their generousity did not end there. The couple spoke in thickly accented English, we exchanged experiences over the dinner table, and there was a connection which established itself at the very moment we spoke. I spoke about giving up travelling, but the couple encouraged me to carry on. They offered to get me things that I might need for my journey, and offered some cash. They are way too nice, to a stranger like me. I didn't know how to thank them.

It's hard to trust people from a new place, because it has been broken once, and it could happen a lot more times in the future. It is not easy to build trust and it takes time. It's even harder when we had to build it from scratch, which is often the case in real life. But I guess that it is just part of life, it is something that we had to learn to deal with, so that we can train ourselves to be instinctive through experience.

...

Thank God it was only a dream. I guess that with this, I'd never ever leave anything behind, out of my sight. This is one of the dreams I had that I remembered with such detail. One of the meaningful things in life that we should never take lightly of.

*Based on a true Dream =)

100th!

Pop a cork and CELEBRATE!!!
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Ok. It's my hundredth. Chill, won't be asking anyone to celebrate this with me, but heck, what an achievement. *thinks* hey.. I think I've reached the 100th mark before, through Friendster blog, until M blocked the site. Sheesh. Nevermind. The world is never short of blogging sites. Heh.

Speaking about TechnoStress (NO, I'm not talking about TECHNO, I was referring to TECHNOlogy), I just had to agree that it has taken over the traditional ways of communication, in fact, taken over by storm. *Yawns* I don't even want to go there.

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For the past few weeks...

It was such an excitement to meet up with long lost friends again. Those you got to know during badminton crazy teenage years, who you've lost touch with eons ago. It's simply amazing how small the circle appears to be when you start to gather your old friends back. Still sharing the same enthusiasm for the same sport that brought us together. Cheers.

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Dough chase. Everyone's got a hot feet when it comes to this. Heh. So hot are their feet that it burned the head. So F. Tak civil langsung.
This is what happens when the brain isnt coordinating the motor movements properly.
I thought someone was killed last night, dismembered, and packed into a rubbish bag. Notice the brown coloured juice flowing out? Might be blood.. Hot are their feet that they don't have time to clear up the mess the make.

Cutest things on earth are Innocent looking.
The looks, I was referring to.

And this is just for you, Thamby :
Why was I not invited to your grand opening?!

Pictures paints a thousand words. (I'm lazy to write..that's what it Meant)

Listen listen listen to Meeee..

I don't have the attention span of a flea. In fact, I pay 110% attention when I listen to people. And I remember things. As it is.

However, its a challenge to listen to this ONE person. While I normally start my day high on energy, all prepared to battle the jam and traffic police out on the roads. No problems.
Talking to this Particular person, it changes things. It's a challenge to pay attention to that person when your focused mind decides against you, and your mind start wandering off.
Not only does the mind wanders far far away from where you should be, them came the sleep-triggering talk. The kind that will make you fall asleep Immediately. It's hard to hold your head up straight and look into that person's eye when when your eyes are not cooperating with your brain. The effects are almost immediate.

I'm still trying to figure out what caused this. The face? The words? I wonder.

The most surprising part was that, it not only happened to me. Same goes for the other 2. Something is wrong. I wonder what would happen if that person gives a Demo presentation to the board of directors? The after effects can be disastrous...

Getaway

I've never participate in any Treasure Hunt of any sort.

This was my first, and definitely won't be my last.

What is more fun that participating in a TreasureHunt, with a team made up of your own family members? It was a cross-border event, which also promotes Visit Malaysia 2007 (Hence the stickers on the participating cars)

It was a wet morning. It's been pouring since the wee hours that day. But it didn't dampen any of the participants enthusiasm a single bit. Everyone was in high spirit, and couldnt wait to get it started. As for me, I was not psyched, mainly cos I didnt get a good sleep the night before, thanks to the mat rempits burning the needle-straight 4-lane newly paved road behind my house; the other was because I spent long hours travelling.

LCCT was such a sight, the first impression it gave me was that it resembles the Melbourne International Airport. It was however a little troublesome to get there, an hour and fifteen minutes ride from KL Sentral to LCCT is rather illogical, cos the flight itself only took less than 55 minutes. Perhaps they should do something about the hour long journey to get there, and make use of the million dollar ERL.

Back to the mat rempits, I should have got up and grab a bag of gravels and start throwing at them. Or make a huge oilspill so that they'll go down together. Sakit hati, sakit telinga.

The Hunt starts from Alor Setar Mall and the last checkpoint would be in a rest area in Changloon, before we head to Hatyai.
The estimated distance that will be covered is 71KM. We were given a 5KM margin, and if you clocked more than that, faham faham la..you took another route to reach the final checkpoint. Clock in more than the given margin, you're disqualified.
We were given 4 hours to finish the Hunt, from the time we were clocked off.
But before we got it going, we had an hour long briefing (in 3 languages), explaining the rules and how to read the manuals, and also how to read the question sheet and fill out the answer sheet. While he was explaining, we havent seen the manuals yet, so we were just listening and tried to remember whatever he was saying.

We were flagged off at 10am, manuals were given out.

Everything I've been trying to absorb just minutes earlier almost faded entirely. Whats all those numbers and what am I suppose to do with it? Haha. As we left the starting point, we started out trying to understand how the sheets and the manual is suppose to work as a pair~

It was until the fourth question, that it finally made sense to add up the numbers on the sheets, that marks the location of the object in question. -.- Lucky us we had a future number crunching auditor on board. Haha. It's all fun from there onwards.

The questions and clues, brought us from AlorSetar, to Kuala Kedah (where you can hop on a ferry to Langkawi), right across the border to Kangar, Perlis, and all the way to Changloon before we head to our final destination at Lee Gardens, Hatyai.

Don't you just love this?

The wet weather was perfect for a set up for a perfect view of paddy fields, as far as the eye can see. I was simply enjoying the greenery around me, and it feels so good to be in the greens again. The concrete jungle back in KL is simply adding on the stress.

It's a test of navigational skills and mathematical skills, the skills to interpret printed words into visual feeds. One lesson learnt, Tresure Hunt means going down and look for it, not sitting in the car and see whatever you can. It was raining, so we didnt get off. =P At least we learnt something, eh?

We reached Changloon, its time for lunch. Had something light at the rest area, and we head to Hatyai. Had to catch some snooze time, I'm just drop dead tired. Occasionally I opened my eyes and see signages bearing words that curve and twist that looks familiar but incomprehensible to me. Welcome to Thailand. Zzzz..

We checked in to the hotel, had a quick shower and we're out again. Food food and more food!

Later that night, we had dinner at the hotel, where the winners and loser were announced. Trophies and prize money were given away. Lots of beer and lots of fun. Love the spirit of the Hash members. Lost of booze. I remember downing alot, thats it. Sitting at the same table with dad and his friends, one of which is also my friend, we downed one glass after another. There was also a lucky draw. They gave away everything, from T-shirts, to RC cars, to fishing rods, to a car battery ( -.-'') and all sorts of things which I cant make out from afar, though I'm sitting at the first table. -.-' Thought it was all over, when its down to 2 remaining prizes to be given away. 0105! Mum's!! A set of tyres -.-'
And the last prize, a set of 17' Rims and tyres to come with it, 0104!!! MINE!!!!!!
Woohoo~

Not forgetting the food, its all hot and spicy. Had my first taste of Thai green curry, and its good! The 2 days spent there, my stomich is all filled with Thai fest of hot stuff. -.-' Good food~